I found another website that I thought would be very helpful for you all suffering with chronic pain.
This is their Mission:
Our Mission
To facilitate peer support and education for individuals with chronic pain
and their families so that these individuals may live more fully in spite of
their pain.
To raise awareness among the health care community, policy makers, and the
public at large about issues of living with chronic pain.
http://www.theacpa.org/default.aspx
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Tuesday
Well I am still having a hard time typing this due to the pain increasing in my arms and numbness in my hands..ugh but this is important to me so I will carry on with this no matter the pain.
13 more days before I go in to have the pain pump implant, I am counting down the days..I know the recovery is going to be a bit rough but its all going to be worth it in the end..:) Then the surgery on my neck..I will be a whole new person by the time this is all done..lol
I had my middle daughter Kayla and my grandson Hunter over today for a while. I did enjoy the visit with them, but with my pain flaring up so much I really didn't get to play to much. But I did the best I could while they were with me. I always feel better when I have my kiddos over and my grand babies no matter how much pain I am in they always put a smile on my face.
I am tired, tired of sitting all the time, tired of not being able to do what I want to when I want too, tired of hurting so damn much. I am at the mercy of this pain all the time. It rules my life..:( I know their is light at the end of this and I just have to stay strong a little bit longer. I am certainly trying very hard to stay strong.
13 more days before I go in to have the pain pump implant, I am counting down the days..I know the recovery is going to be a bit rough but its all going to be worth it in the end..:) Then the surgery on my neck..I will be a whole new person by the time this is all done..lol
I had my middle daughter Kayla and my grandson Hunter over today for a while. I did enjoy the visit with them, but with my pain flaring up so much I really didn't get to play to much. But I did the best I could while they were with me. I always feel better when I have my kiddos over and my grand babies no matter how much pain I am in they always put a smile on my face.
I am tired, tired of sitting all the time, tired of not being able to do what I want to when I want too, tired of hurting so damn much. I am at the mercy of this pain all the time. It rules my life..:( I know their is light at the end of this and I just have to stay strong a little bit longer. I am certainly trying very hard to stay strong.
Monday, February 6, 2012
COLD WEATHER
Well since we really haven't had any cold weather other then the rain that plays havoc on my pain it hasn't been extremely bad, but now that the cold weather is here everything has flared up to the point that it hurts to just type this. The pain has flared back up in my arms from my neck herniation and of course then their is my back pain. Wow, I am to the point that I just sit on my heating pad and don't feel like doing anything else because I know if I do it just makes me hurt even more. I do try to get somethings done around the house though, because otherwise the guilt would just eat at me because my husband works all day and to have him come home and have to do something around here is just wrong. Bless his heart he tries so hard to make sure I am comfortable and happy. He does things without complaining and he has put up with all this with me from the start and I know it hasn't been easy for him at all..:( He is still here with me, I am truly blessed to have such a man in my life. And I know this is hard on my girls watching their Mom hurt all the time. Knowing that I am limited. When my grand babies reach their arms out for me to pick them up it just breaks my heart because I can't..:( I love them all and I am grateful that they are all here to lend a helping hand and are understanding when it comes to my condition. I have to stop for now my arms are just hurting to bad, but wanted to write while I could.
Friday, February 3, 2012
Rain
Wow I know we need the rain as I sit here on Friday afternoon just trying to accomplish a couple of things with the pain this weather is causing me. I always try to keep that smile on my face to hide how much physical pain I truly am in..:( I also try not to whine to much about it for the last thing I want or need is sympathy. But when the weather is like this it's almost to much to bare. Nothing I take really eases it, the only thing I can really do on days like today is sit in my recliner with my heating pad and try not to move around to much. Seems like with the herniated disc in my neck and this weather it is starting to bother my arms more and more, although I have tried not to complain to much about my neck, shoulders and arms it is really really giving me trouble today not to mention need I my back, and I can't seem to get comfortable no matter what I do. Just typing this hurts but I am bound and determined to share this with all willing to read in the hopes that during my journey of pain and healing that I can help others as well.
Days like today I just want to sleep all day until the pain goes away, but I know I can't. I do however try to keep my mind busy with my crochet, getting on Internet or just watching a good movie. The weekend is upon us and we really have no big plans, just going to chill at home and watch a few movies over the weekend with my hubby..:)
Days like today I just want to sleep all day until the pain goes away, but I know I can't. I do however try to keep my mind busy with my crochet, getting on Internet or just watching a good movie. The weekend is upon us and we really have no big plans, just going to chill at home and watch a few movies over the weekend with my hubby..:)
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Ready for some relief
Well I went to see my pain Doc yesterday for my following up of doing the trail pain pump. Which by the way did work..:) We sat and talked for a bit making sure all questions were answered and set the date for the implant..Feb 20th will be the beginning of a new life for me without all the pain I have been suffering with for years. I know the recovery period will be somewhat uncomfortable but to know that their is light at the end of that is enough for me to bare it.
I am so looking forward to be able to do things again instead of just sit all the time. Or be limited miss out on family functions etc. The first thing I am going to do is take a walk around the block..lol I haven't been able to do that in so long without so much pain. Then to really play with my grandbabies is going to make me so very happy..:)
I certainly hope that people will read my blog and relay this to people and their families who are living with pain so that in hopes of sharing my story it will some how help others. I am just starting this and will be posting daily about my journey to get to this point in my life.
I am so looking forward to be able to do things again instead of just sit all the time. Or be limited miss out on family functions etc. The first thing I am going to do is take a walk around the block..lol I haven't been able to do that in so long without so much pain. Then to really play with my grandbabies is going to make me so very happy..:)
I certainly hope that people will read my blog and relay this to people and their families who are living with pain so that in hopes of sharing my story it will some how help others. I am just starting this and will be posting daily about my journey to get to this point in my life.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Trials and tribulations
Well I must say that since we first found out that our 16 year old daughter who is now 18 was pregnant is certainly has been one heck of a roller coaster ride for us to say the least. AT that age teenagers hormones are still out of wack and then add being pregnant with it and wow. The drama that began from the day we found out she was pregnant up until now almost two yeas later has been what heck of a ride.
First Hunter the baby was born premature at 29 weeks that started it all. I (wife) am medically retired due to my back and the comings and goings at the hopsital tooks its toll on me and my husband, but I was very committed to seeing this little boy almost daily. I prayed every day that this little miracle child made it and would be ok. Well after only weighing in at 2lbs when he was born to now at 22 month weighing in at 34 pounds its hard to believe it was ever that small. He spent three months in NICU before he could ever come home.
I know it was hard on my daughter because she really missed out on the bonding part of it and the hell we went through once that baby came home on a heart monitor at that was just the beginning. My daughter was bound and determined to take Hunter and move in with her then boyfriend the father and his family. We were hell bent on making her stay here afterall she was only 16, but after all the police calls and confrontations we finally let her and the baby go. I knew it wouldn't last long and about a month later they were back home and have been here with us ever since. The father of Hunter has not had much to do with him at all. My daughter has been having to take raising him on her own. Hunter does have some problems because he was born premature, therapist come into work with him weekly, helping with his speech, behaviour, physical, and motor skills. He doesn't talk much does more signing and pointing then anything. He gets very frustrated when we don't understand what it is he is wanting. Our lives have been put on hold that is for sure, but he is such a sweet boy and i wouldn't take it back for anything in the world. I am just glad he is getting the help he needs so that hopefully by the time he starts school he will be OK..:)
My husband has not been working since Dec of 07 and was brought up the old fashion way to be the provider of the family, he finally landed a job in a different career field then what he is use too, but the extra money is certainly help to pay the bills and get us some what caught up.
I am going to continue daily blogging about the ups and downs we have been through and feel free to jump in anytime and give some advice, or tell me a little about your situation that is similiar to ours and how you are couping with it.
Take care
First Hunter the baby was born premature at 29 weeks that started it all. I (wife) am medically retired due to my back and the comings and goings at the hopsital tooks its toll on me and my husband, but I was very committed to seeing this little boy almost daily. I prayed every day that this little miracle child made it and would be ok. Well after only weighing in at 2lbs when he was born to now at 22 month weighing in at 34 pounds its hard to believe it was ever that small. He spent three months in NICU before he could ever come home.
I know it was hard on my daughter because she really missed out on the bonding part of it and the hell we went through once that baby came home on a heart monitor at that was just the beginning. My daughter was bound and determined to take Hunter and move in with her then boyfriend the father and his family. We were hell bent on making her stay here afterall she was only 16, but after all the police calls and confrontations we finally let her and the baby go. I knew it wouldn't last long and about a month later they were back home and have been here with us ever since. The father of Hunter has not had much to do with him at all. My daughter has been having to take raising him on her own. Hunter does have some problems because he was born premature, therapist come into work with him weekly, helping with his speech, behaviour, physical, and motor skills. He doesn't talk much does more signing and pointing then anything. He gets very frustrated when we don't understand what it is he is wanting. Our lives have been put on hold that is for sure, but he is such a sweet boy and i wouldn't take it back for anything in the world. I am just glad he is getting the help he needs so that hopefully by the time he starts school he will be OK..:)
My husband has not been working since Dec of 07 and was brought up the old fashion way to be the provider of the family, he finally landed a job in a different career field then what he is use too, but the extra money is certainly help to pay the bills and get us some what caught up.
I am going to continue daily blogging about the ups and downs we have been through and feel free to jump in anytime and give some advice, or tell me a little about your situation that is similiar to ours and how you are couping with it.
Take care
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